The Language of the Soul

Brothers

2011-07-10T14:09:00.001-07:00

Mother,

sitting alone in your empty room

please realize

love and gratefulness

brings you higher

than hatred and bitterness

Father,

sitting atop that horse

looking down at ants

that make up your frame of view.

please realize,

the meaning of unconditional

Sister dear

in your growing years

the only thing you hear is truth.

but the line between

truth and lies

is grey with both sides

Brothers

don't you see,

we're all we got when the world

owes us nothing.

Just breathe

It'll be over soon

All be over soon

happiness

2011-07-04T16:02:00.000-07:00

what is light without the dark?

you can not have one without each other

so then

what is happiness without pain?

if you never know suffering

how do you know what it means

to pull through

Closer

2011-06-29T12:29:00.000-07:00

If fighting was bleeding

I'd be bled dry

but if fighting means believing

I have no hope

I wish I knew what it meant

to have a dream

something to hold onto

the dawn turned to dusk

They wait in then sidelines

and steady the gun

You don't see the bullets

and they're too fast to run

in every part of your body

the cartridge hits

and body meets soul

for a quick moment

until the reality sets in,

this is the end

I have no more in me

no more to give

if my body is what they wanted

they got my soul

and with my last breath

I thank them

for letting me go

Away from this place

away from the woe,

the torture, the days

when you smile to your loved ones and walk away

I don't know when I'll return,

but this still holds true

every moment I'm sleeping

I'm closer to you

Hurt

2011-02-20T13:09:00.000-08:00

You hurt me.

Took a knife to my heart and cut me;

Waving smiles and hugs to deceive me.

Now trust is broken and the walls have fallen;

For a house can not hold itself up with empty promises,

with meaningless words, with fallacies.

So watch it crumble,

Each piece

Cracks resounding through the hall.

This house did not matter,

You have many more,

Even larger houses you have built;

But beware of what you might become.

For a wrecking ball may be able to disguise

it's destructive tendencies for a time,

move slightly and delicately around

the people it does not wish to harm,

but in nature it will always be destructive.

Oh World

2011-01-09T04:12:00.000-08:00

Forgive me if I'm young + speak out of turn,

but theres too much pain and so much hurt.

Life is too precious

to continue down this road.

All we are given is the power to love.

It's what separates us from

the fire, the thunder, the flood.

It's our cold blue blood

that's bleeds deep red from our scar.

How can we take the knife and stab another's heart,

then walk away feeling bigger than we were.

That same red blood bleeds from our 'enemy,'

and this dissolution is killing me.

Please say a prayer for us all,

That we all grow bigger than we are,

And learn that love is all that's left

When the world is no more.

♥

2010-12-12T18:20:00.001-08:00

Does my heart truly beat louder,

or do my senses simply become enhanced

to see every breath and taste every moment.

Does this smile say everything I can't put into words,

how nothing made sense until this.

Does my touch speak to you of my past, present, and future;

How my past now seems torturous time

spent not aware of what I was longing for.

How my present seems like a dream, every second better than the last;

And how my future, although a game of chance, seems so certain

knowing you will be here.

Tell me, do I speak to you, my love, in silence?

Does every kiss of your cheek tell you how much my heart is singing.

Does every glide of my fingers through your hair tell you

how I couldn't live without you.

Does every giggle thank you for everything you are?

I long for answers!

Please, my life, my love, tell me;

Does my speechlessness speak to you,

and do you know how much I adore you?

♥

Hollow

2010-11-07T09:54:00.000-08:00

My heart is bleeding acid

melting me inside,

till a hollow me smiles

and my life becomes a lie.

I stand calling to consciousness,

trying to find if it exists.

A message in a bottle

that will allow this to all make sense.

But

it shys away and leaves me alone and repent,

of a life I lead not knowing where it went.

From an audience's view I scream my life aloud,

of times I am too proud,

of times the pain has caused to cloud...

From the stands it is easy to judge,

but do you dare come to me,

and touch me

as my body floods

the sins of a thousand lifetimes.

God knows I tried,

but the Devil,

he has such pretty eyes.

Time

2010-11-06T15:04:00.001-07:00

Breathe easy, young one,

Nothing in this life truly matters.

We are all just delicate flowers caught in a tidal of the universe,

Forced to combat existence until we can no longer.

All we truly have is time.

A clock ticking, tiny heartbeats resounding, every breath we take.

And when we are gone, what will remain of us?

Memories? All the things we have done? The echo of these tiny heartbeats within another?

But what of the universe,

What happens when it is no longer?

Do our memories remain as a handprint in time,

Or do they disappear as words dissipate to air?

Take my days, my love,

I have nothing greater to give.

Why do we dream?

2010-11-03T11:27:00.000-07:00

Why do we dream?

To crush the soul with the playback repeat of everything we desire and can not achieve every time we close our eyes?

Why do we cherish these dreams as if they are a child, an infant born of our subconscious when they are like knives stabbing at our hearts of the failures that arise from the pursuit and attempt at achieving them?

What person places their hand in boiling water,

feels the sting,

the pain,

sees the scars

and the next day bathes in that same water?

Then,

why do we continue to pursue our biggest dreams when all they bring is pain, scars, tears?

Because, maybe

somewhere in our hearts the hope these dreams are feasible exists,

and that hope can create a will to push on no burning pain can subdue.

Because settling for what is easy and painless kills that hope and destroys a part of us we didn't even know existed,

and leaves us a cold shell of the person we once we were.

Where we once saw blue skies, we see darkness.

Where we once felt a morning breeze we feel a cold, dry, frozen wind chilling us to our very soul.

And this dull everyday "manageable" pain is far worse than any short burst of suffering we could ever face.

Your going to dream anyways, mind as well Dream Big.

2009-05-18T09:51:00.000-07:00

I have started this in order to keep friends and family updated with my professional growth, however before I begin, I must start by closing the past...

And the past year has been quite the roller coaster ride.

There have the highest highs, the lowest of all lows, and everything in between. I struggled with a voice that was less than perfect, did less than stellar at my university, suffered my first heartbreak, and moved out of the only home I ever knew.

It was wonderful.

I am so blessed to have a family that pushes me to dream on, and dream big. What is every fall but an opportunity to stand up again? I wake up every morning feeling uplifted, relieved, and more resilient.

With the help of my amazing voice teachers, my voice gets stronger everyday. I have been able to rekindle the fire for knowledge I have always had, but managed to dim for too long. I have stood up against my heart from a relationship that was more painful than it was pleasureful, and in the process, found a new Love. And moving away from Florida, one of the most difficult things, brought me closer to a family I was too distant from for too long.

Overall, this year has taught me the most important lesson of all: Perseverance. It was a lesson I failed to truly understand in the past, and would have failed myself if I had not come to realize.

So, here's to a closed chapter and an entire book of blank pages waiting to be written. Here's to growth, happiness and triumphs. Here's to pain, suffering and tears. But most of all, here's to Perseverance. Here's to Success. Here's to Dreams.

Big Dreams, and their realization.